Thursday, June 23, 2005
There's a kind of hush.
About thirty minutes back, I had my first home-cooked dinner, ever since the start of the holidays. Or perhaps, way back to sometime I cannot remember of. Yes, this is how long my Mum has not cook for the family because she was busy with work. My meals have been centered around coffee shops or Yoshinoya. (: So tonight, I had the privileged to test my Mum's cooking once again. :D And yes, it was delicious though the dishes were simple.
Sigh. I have been so hooked onto my computer for the past week, busy uploading songs. Haha. It's crazy to know that I have all those songs many don't listen now and have therefore, fallen in love with them. Now, songs in my computer has taken up 4.35GB of space, and more will be added.
This afternoon intention of studying was replaced with uploading songs and ironing my uniform. Ah yes, it has been a long long time I iron my own uniform. And as I iron, I cannot wait for the day I don't have to do the chore anymore(though I like my uniform a lot). By the way, I have found out a new way of not ironing clothes but still doesn't looked so crumpled. Teeheehee. xD
Anyway, after I hung up the phone this morning at 3.30am, what was conversed actually hit me. About my future where decisions need to be made and place I will land up. I am confused, lost and caught in a delimma. However, I have come to a point where I understand that willingness is all it is required. I can pray and fast for it, but ultimitely, will what I share out truly speaks of what He wants me to be or where He wants me to be? Or will it be just the way I want it to be? I wouldn't say that this thing is not bugging me, but I would rather place my focus on things that needs to be attended now than to focus on things that leaves me uncertain. Sidetrack a little, I think sometimes the things I've said contridicts each other. Bahhs.
-ywans- I'm so tired now. And I'm contemplatating much because... school is starting in 4days time.
maoed.]
at 8:28 PM
+++His child.
jiayi; jean. 060488// hope// sound ministry// neb1// grace's sheep// phs// 5compassion// basketball//
+++smiles.
Him// simpsonx// shuping// red.black.white// eight// violin// guitar// disney// animals// kids// adidas// bottoms// horror::thrillers// watermelon// peach// mango// tomato// tea// fish// white chocs// marshmellows// shopping// friendships
+++frowns.
noise// dirtiness// chili// pork// snake// comedies// thunders// lightnings//
+++memories.
chalet//
courageous camp//
devotees//
devotees`bbq//
faith camp//
firework`04//
foundation camp//
life in the kingdom//
neb//
phs`03//
phs'04//
seventeen//
siMpsOnx//
student conference//
the ultimate dare//
+++books.
a love worth giving// a woman's answer to anger// every young woman's battle// helping others without hurting yourself// journeys of friendship//
if you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat// in the grip of grace// love beyond reason// loving God with all your mind// recapture the world//
the friendship's of women// traveling light// wild at heart// words that hurt words that heal//
